Ten Minutes to Happiness
I am not by nature a “happy” person. People who haven’t known me long usually seem surprised to hear this, “No! You’re so Positive!/Upbeat!” I consider myself more of a “perky pessimist.” I’m not all mopey (I don’t think. Not all the time, anyway) and droopy like Eeyore, but..I’m definitely closer to the dark than the light.
And because the message out there All The Time is Smile! Be Happy! Choose Happiness! I can start feeling “less than,” because I just don’t UNDERSTAND “choose happiness.”
I choose it ALL. The bad and the good. The happy and the sad. The dark and the light. It’s All HERE, it’s All Part of Every Life, why pretend an entire part of life doesn’t exist?
I’ve always failed at daily gratitudes and gratitude journals. Not because I don’t FEEL grateful for things…but because I ALSO feel FRUSTRATED or PAINED or MISTREATED or UNLUCKY or HURT or any number of other things, and it just doesn’t feel right to me to pretend those things don’t exist. It’s like saying “half your feelings don’t matter.” And oh, my feelings MATTER.
Like, when writing things out, or talking to someone about my day or an experience, or whatever, I need to START with the bad. I need to acknowledge and get through the bad before I can feel good about the good. Did someone hear me? Did *I* hear me? Do you GET that it’s not all easy and that maybe I’m struggling or in pain or confused? Okay, good, now we can go on. It’s like…the BAD is my context. Hmm. I never thought of it like that before right this second (see how therapeutic writing can be??). And like some people say “into each life a little rain must fall,” mine feels more like “onto every dark a little light may fall.”
And against the darkness, I will SEE the light. And appreciate it and be GRATEFUL for it. But if I don’t appreciate the dark first, it’s like I just can’t SEE the light. Does this make sense to anyone else?
Anyway, all this is a preamble to an exercise I saw from a book called “Ten Minutes to Happiness,” (which grated on me right away CUZ WHOEVER SAID HAPPINESS WAS THE BE ALL AND END ALL?!) by Sandi Mann. She suggests journaling daily, asking yourself these six questions about your day:
1. What experiences, however mundane, gave you pleasure?
2. What praise and feedback did you receive?
3. What were the moments of pure good fortune?
4. What were your achievements, however small?
5. What made you feel grateful?
6. How did you express kindness?
And I think I kind of like this. It’s not all about HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY, the questions seem more reasonable than that. And to these six *I* would add, 1) Did you say or do anything you regret? 2) What made you feel anxious or emotional? 3) What are you feeling apprehensive about? Because those are my main downers.
So I’m going to try this exercise. Will it make me HAPPY!!!? Eh. Probably not. But maybe it will help me see a little more light through the dark.
What I’m Wearing:
- Avenue Floral Kimono, no longer available. Comparable here and here
- White Daily Ritual/Amazon tee, 4x
- Charlotte Russe skinny jeans, 22 short. No longer available. Comparable here
- Sam Edelman flatform flip-flops. No longer available. Comparable here
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Chris
I’m also a member of the “perky pessimist” club and it’s so refreshing to hear someone say these things out loud, in writing no less! Yay for those of us who don’t think we have to spend every moment of every day in a state of grateful happiness!! I’m perfectly content with my perspective that some times all is well and other times not so great. I detest people trying to talk me out of my feelings! I find those exercises often make me feel worse rather than better. What if I didn’t get any validation today? Am I now a failure for the day!? Uh oh. But still, I persist in savoring my moments of happiness while recognizing some days are generally going to suck more than others!
Iris
Love that kimona.
Grace & Peace,Iris
http://www.IrisOriginalsRamblings.com
Nancy
Oh I don’t want to be bothered with all that stupid, be positive, smile, and all. And ten minutes to happy sounds to me something I would afterwards say F… off! I decide when I want to be happy or not! Haha. You know there are therapy’s for laughing. Then all these , to me hippies, people sit in a circle, I hate that especially when you have to touch someone, and start to laugh. Out of no were. Yeah right! It makes me pissed. Haha, so that clears the air!
jodie filogomo
It’s like this post was for me Bettye. Because I’m one of those annoyingly happy people. Yet I get it that everyone isn’t that way. I bet it’s a chemical thing in our bodies, because it’s easier for some of us than others. Don’t get me wrong…there are days that my smile is hidden (like yesterday when I got up and a text that I received annoyed me ALL day). But you’re right that you don’t appreciate the light until you have the darkness.
All philosophy aside, can we talk about that fabulous kimono?? It’s absolutely perfect for you!!
XOXO
Jodie
bettyewp
Yeah, I’ve always wondered what the real difference is between optimists and pessimists/happy not as happy people. My sister is much more “the glass is not only half full, it’s full of magical happy delights!” How did she get THOSE chemicals and I got, “my glass is broken.” I’m sure it’s SOMEWHAT environmentally/experientially developed, but I feel like I’ve always been this way. And then events have like confirmed it. Anyway.
Sorry you had a crappy text 🙁 Want me to kick them for you?
Kathleen r sadler
a while back you posted about this Kimono. for God only knows what reason, as i did not need it, I sent for one. really pretty, light weight and actually have worn it twice! i have a black sleeveless linen dress, (a friend lent me and i just kept it!) and this kimono really livened it up. perfect for the wedding shower, and my soon to be daughter in law can also wear it!
thanks for the tip!
I can never have too much fashion advice!
kath
bettyewp
Kathy! Long time, no see! Glad you like the kimono! Yeah, I posted it when I wore it to a beach wedding a couple months ago. I wish someone would lend ME a linen dress that I could keep! Loose linen dress has been the holy grail of this summer for me! Wow, son getting married! Congratulations! xoxo
julia
Perky pessimist! Hilarious! Well, you look lovely no matter what mood you’re in. I love the print on your kimono and I love your photography surroundings. It’s hard to photograph in the summer I find b/c there is either too much sun or it’s so hot I look like I’m having a heart attack. I hate to wish away summer but come on seventy degree days!
bettyewp
Yeah, the patio has been a godsend in the heat. I don’t like shooting in the same spot Every Single Time AND I’m always rushing cuz I never know if the landlords are peering at me from their windows upstairs, PLUS there’s not a lot of room. But at least I can just jump quickly out of the ac, shoot for 5 minutes, and get right back inside. So, for now, it works. And it’s nicely shaded so I never have to worry about direct sun from overhead.
I haven’t seen you shoot in your black and white and green “studio” in a long time. Has that been appropriated for some other use?
Cheryl Tucker
I love “perky pessimist!” I think it is good to be able to face and express all your feelings. My mom was a perky pessimist and I was always “hopping happy.” It was just my nature. I remember when I was little, out of the blue I would tell my mom, “I’m so happy.” And she would reply “well I’m happy you’re happy.” And I would skip away still happy as ever. My mom was the greatest because she let me be a wild spirit.
The last few years though I have seen myself walk over to the darker side and there are days were I am a perky pessimist. So I know the feeling. I’ts a tough world. But still the “happy” lives in my heart and when I take walks tears comes to my eyes at all the peace and beauty I am honored to see. And when I make a cake I am grateful for every spoon and measuring cup and the peace I feel in my heart. When I talk to my family I am grateful. When my puppies give me gentle kisses I am grateful. When life tries to drag me down I “fake it till I make it.”
But that’s thing I love most about life, is all our differences and perspectives and that we can accept each other as we are, perky pessimist or hopping happy!
FABULOUS POST!
Peace!
Cheryl
bettyewp
Moms who let their wild spirit kids be free are the best! You were lucky 🙂
Andrea Kenner
These are good questions. They helped me find something good and unique about today. Thank you!
bettyewp
Right?? I thought they were very useful in guiding you to find “good” even if you weren’t really aware that there was any there.