I’m Cranky, but…

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I’ve been feeling very cranky this week. Everything is pissing me off: my keyboard, the mouse, the dog, the bug that keeps buzzing in my ear at night, the return of heat and humidity, this %&(&^!! acne. And more.

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In trying to figure out what the REAL issue is…I think it’s the waste of this entire year to stupid cancer and the accompanying surgery and treatments. I’ve felt crappy for too long, I’ve been stuck inside and sedentary for too long, I’ve missed out on doing fun things with friends and Caleb…and myself.

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So, treatments are over. I certainly don’t FEEL better yet…but I’m trying to force myself out a little more. A teeny tiny walk with the dog. Sitting in my chair at the beach at sunset. Having ice cream with a friend in town. Easy things but…IT’S GETTING ME OUT OF THE DAMN HOUSE!!!

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So, as the title said, I’m cranky, but…I’ve tried to keep things as easy for myself as possible this year (well, except for moving, ha ha – that was not ideal timing but it’s done). A dress like this helps. The Sharagano dress is a drapey chambray (I think it feels like a Tencel blend) and SO easy peasy to wear. It’s a loose swirly tent-fit and hardly wrinkles. I rented it through Gwynnie Bee and when the sale price went to SIXTEEN DOLLARS I snatched it right up. I love this spicey orangey rust color and it goes well with several of my duster length cardigans so I can wear it well into the autumn.

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And oh yeah, POCKETS.

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So, yes, I’m cranky, but…things are GOING to get better. Each week a little more of the chemo poison will leave my body and I’ll start feeling better and better. I’ll be able to start living MY life again…not CANCER’S life. Stupid cancer.

Soon I’ll be spending less time laying in bed and more time watching sunsets.

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Pictures taken by my friend Karen. Thanks!

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10 thoughts on “I’m Cranky, but…

  1. Yes, I hear ya. Give yourself a break. You were busy doing battle! Everything is still here for you to enjoy and experience. And you know, summer and spring weren’t that great, (sweat and bugs!) so you didn’t miss much. You were fighting that stupid disease so some things got left undone. But, now that that is over, you can start planning your next chapter. Your cancer-free chapter. I bet you have a different perspective now too. And looking quite stylish while doing it I might add! This dress has enough structure to look polished but still looks comfortable and fits well. Plus, fall is the best season so it’s a perfect time to get out and get back to normal. Julia

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  2. Well, you may feel crappy, but you’re looking pretty feisty in that really cute dress. You’re on the downhill side now, but it’s still gonna take awhile. Remember they were trying to see how close they could come to killing you without actually doing it. You are blessed with such a beautiful place to watch the sunset – sit back and enjoy it a bit.

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    1. Thanks, Iris. Feisty, ha ha. “Remember they were trying to see how close they could come to killing you without actually doing it.” Yeah, that seems about right. Thanks for all your support and prayers.

      Bettye

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  3. Sorry to hear you are feeling cranky.I hope you will soon be feeling better, so you can enjoy your new home and surroundings, and think of all the new ways you can think of styling your new hair when it grows.!! Chin Up.

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