A year ago at this time I was reeling with the realization that I had been ghosted. I can’t believe it’s been a year. It was not easy. I wrote a LOT of emails that I never sent – sometimes that’s the best form of journaling for me. Asking and saying all the things you wish you had said in the moment. Getting to really be angry. It’s a way of getting some of that bad stuff out of your head. I’m proud of myself that I never contacted him after that, not even once. I WANTED to. But I managed to not.

A year ago at this time I was on the verge of a 2-week vacation. The longest vacation I’d had (not counting time out in 2017 for surgery, but that was no vacation) since I started at my job 11 years earlier. I had a healthy bucket list…but ghoster knocked me for a loop and my main activity during that time was sitting alone playing things back in my head…and writing the aforementioned never-to-be-sent emails.

A year ago at this time I had been in my old apartment for exactly a year. I knew she was going to be putting it on the market early in the coming year, but I thought I could stay there until it sold, so I didn’t feel my next move was imminent. SURPRISE!

Two years ago at this time I was getting my head shaved as I was losing my hair rapidly due to chemo.

Nine years ago at this time we were dropping Katie off for her first year of college and I was packing to move from my sweet little house to the wilds of Brooklyn.

Time passes. Nothing stays the same. Things progress. They change. You grow.

I can’t even imagine what changes might take place in the coming year. Standing here, it seems like nothing major. But we probably always think that.

Sigh.

Speaking of changes, THIS is absolutely, positively The Last Gwynnie Bee Dress. When I called last week to cancel my subscription she told me my next item had already been sent, so…I got to have one more GB moment. And this dress is that rare item for me: A Thing That’s Too Big. I don’t know if I’m getting smaller (ha ha) or clothing is getting larger, but it does seem to be happening more and more often. It’s a cute dress, coral with polka dots in sort of a swingy crepey polyester. Anne Klein. But it’s just too much dress for me. It’s too long, it’s too full. I’m only 5’3.” If you were like 5’5″ or taller and as big through the stomach/butt/hips as I am, it would probably be great. But…it was the last thing so I was darn well gonna wear it!

It was 300% humidity that morning. I had just showered and blown my hair out: sleek, smooth, swingy. Two minutes out in that soup and you would never guess that just moments earlier I had been a vision of loveliness.

If you had to guess what might be different in your life in a year…what might that be?

What I Wore:

  • Anne Klein Polka Dot Midi Dress, size 3x. Exact dress in straight sizes here, and comparable in plus size here and here.
  • Steve Madden cognac slides, old. Comparable here and here.

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