I was diagnosed with uterine cancer (not really a soft way to say something like that). There are some little (figurative) side bumps but overall I am told that if you have to have cancer, uterine is a good one to have. Theoretically, this afternoon’s total hysterectomy will remove all the cancer and I’ll be good as new – better even cuz No More Bleeding. But…they’ll have a better picture of everything once they open me up.
I’ve spent 11 days in the hospital now between my two visits…and I have to tell you, your world can get Very Small Very Fast. In here you lose so much control. There’s no privacy, you live eat sleep (and shower!) on THEIR schedule. So I’m so so grateful for family friends and coworkers who reach out to me daily, who visit and bring distracting gifts and snacks and stories from “the outside.” I’m grateful to my ex and his family for taking care of Caleb all this time. I’m grateful to my daughter who is flying home to take care of me when I get out of the hospital. I’m grateful to my work for being so adamant that I take care of myself even though this was the worst possible time for me to not be there.
I’m grateful for kind nurses who dig thru linens to find me a soft gown, or who apologize when sticking me for blood One More Time. I’m grateful to have a window beside me.
I’m grateful to have the “good” cancer and to have a dr with all kinds of fancy titles and experience and recommendations.
I’m grateful to have people who love me.
And I am looking forward to going HOME soon…and feeling the air and sleeping in my own bed with the lights out…and to leaving this bizarro winter behind me and moving into the rebirth of spring and new life.
I’m feeling a little adventurous…like I want to sew flowers all over a dress…or just wear something a little crazy! You’ll just have to keep reading to see what I’m going to do next.
Thanks for hanging around in my absence, friends.