You Deserve the Very Best…

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I look at these pictures taken 3 weeks ago and it seems like a lifetime ago. All I see when I look at them is TIRED. A TIRED woman. And I *was* tired. I’d been tired for some time, but always attributed it to my weight or my age or just generally being out of shape. And I pushed through…because that’s what you do. It’s what we all do. We just keep going, pushing ourselves, til we can’t go no mo.

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It was the day after this shoot that I ended up in the Emergency Room and the next day admitted to the hospital. For five days. And then another 10 days the very next week. The cancer diagnosis really surprised me. “I’m just tired.” Now I’m tired from the surgery – a hysterectomy 6 days ago. Still waiting on the pathology from the surgery but I’m counting on it being positive. In the meantime I’m recovering. I’m back at home, my daughter is here helping me. Life doesn’t feel normal again yet, but it will.

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My body doesn’t feel normal yet, either. When I look down, my stomach seems like it shifted lower. Like I used to feel pregnant w a basketball right under my boobs…and now the basketball has dropped. So the biggest part of my stomach is in a new place. And that feels weird. I didn’t expect that. I have to get used to my body again.

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I’ve started walking. BABY baby steps. 5 minutes out then five minutes back. That’s all I can do just yet. But I’ll feel stronger as I heal from the surgery and eventually I’ll be able to walk 10 minutes out and back. And maybe my body will change a little more. Because I’m tired of my body making me feel tired. This isn’t me hating on my body. This is me LOVING on me and my body and wanting both of us to FEEL BETTER. We deserve that, my body and I.

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We deserve the very best.

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17 thoughts on “You Deserve the Very Best…

  1. Gosh, don’t know what to say. I hope you’re on the mend. I hope being tired is over though I really thought it was more about our age, but maybe not. I’m excited for your attitude about getting strong and totally don’t feel that you’re hating your body, just re-directing your time and energy. I’m following along with you on your path to getting back to normal. I’m missing those fashionista posts!

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    1. I’m on the mend, it’s just slow. I just put on clothes, is that fashionista enough for ya, ha ha?! I have to drop some paperwork off at work, the child is driving me…but just the act of getting dressed wiped me out. Underwear is NOT my friend right now. We’ll pick up chopped salads for dinner then come back here for the night. Life is very small right now. Thanks for being a friend, Julia!

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  2. Of course you’re still tired, of course you run out of steam quickly. Your body has been through a lot. You’re walking 10 minutes – I think that’s great – and it will get better. So glad your daughter is there. Good to see you here! Hang in there – you are much in my thoughts and prayers.

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  3. Wishing you all the best in your new start, Bettye!! Sooo happy you went to the doctor and got this taken care of! I think you deserve a shopping spree once you’re feeling better!! Best of luck with the pathology results! I’m sure they’ll be fine!! Xoxo

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  4. You are getting stronger every day. Having the love and support of your family, friends and, of course, that amazing daughter of yours. These pictures of you are great. Just think of your next shoot, and how amazing you are going to look because of how much better you feel. Love you sister-in-law!

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  5. You rock Bettye – even after surgery! Take time for your recovery and enjoy the peace of healing – positive thoughts and energy for a cancer free diagnosis. Love you and love this blog!

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    1. “Enjoy the peace of healing.” I like that. It’s not my usual MO so it’s a challenge. I’m more a LETS GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD kinda gal, but I will keep your words in mind and try and slow down and enjoy.

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  6. You are in my thoughts and prayers! i had no idea why you were in the hospital… I thought maybe you were hooking up with a surgeon or something 😉 Rest and get well soon!

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